I had to do something to get the tension of me, the first thing that came to my mind was smoking. It was a terrible habit i quitted when I was serving my time as we were not allowed to smoke. A sudden temptation led me to the nearest minimart where I bought my first packet in 5 years.
Stick after stick I puffed but still, I was unable to curb the rage. I made a call to Chris, I needed company. I didn't want to end up doing anything reckless, anything I might regret in the future.
We drove off to a pub down the street. Alcohol, why didn't I think of that? I used to abuse alcohol when I was young, not because I enjoyed it but because I wanted to get my friends drunk. Cup after cup we drank and drank, I couldn't even remember how many bottles we had. I felt the anger gradually dissipating, I finally had peace. My mind was empty, it felt great.
I wouldn't propose that nicotine and alcohol is a good way to get my mind off things but it has done a great job in easing my pain. The pain of losing a loved one, the pain of being betrayed by someone I trust. I guess I have found the medication to mend the holes in my heart. Until I find something else to replace them, I shall put all my heart in devoting my life to them both. My new friends, nicotine and alcohol.
I was so intoxicated I had no idea Chris left, that guy has never managed to hold his liquor well. I made my way out of the pub, and lit a cigarette. The whole world is swirling around me, I could feel my vision getting blurry. I took one step forward onto the road, I had no control of my body movements.
A loud piercing horn sounded directly beside me, I turned to face a glaring light. Not knowing what was happening, I shielded my eyes from the light with my hand, the next thing I knew, I was thrown off my feet.
I couldn't feel any pain, my eyes were closing. I could hear voices around me before slipping into complete darkness......
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